How to Tell if You’re Brazen

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Dawn broke early in the week not in it’s usual brazen pinks and golds but shrouded within a silver mist.

My head as foggy as the air outside my door. Monday’s have that way about them.

Early in the morning I sip coffee in the quiet. Flipping pages of 1 John looking for the light- love equals obedience. Faith fodders fruit.

I contemplate gardens and simple pleasures from growing food in the rich ruddy ground. Aprons with embroidered flowers and enamel topped tables. I breathe in slowly and marvel over simple seaside Greek towns – images from the show we watched the night before – filled with pastel boats, homes overhanging cliffs and octogenarians. Beauty and simplicity. Hushed and un-rushed living.

And I long.

I sigh.

I pant as deer for the water which sometimes visit the field across from where I walk some evenings. All the pressure of this world with it’s fizzy frenzied pace, technology tirades and empty promises leave me twisted up and wrung out like dirty dishwater rags at the end of the day.

Late at night I choose from the stacks of books perched everywhere- started but not yet finished- similar to how I feel about a lot of things in my life. And it’s no coincidence, but rather a divine connection of affirming witnesses when I pick up one that becomes an answer to a prayer.

BRAZEN

I settle in under dim lamp light and I’m nudged deep in my soul by this:

Some days I feel like my issues and my identity are one and the same. I believe I am fatally flawed, and I will never be free. The weight of this lie all but buries me. It makes me angry, rage-y, because I am so entirely tired of being tired. I want peace. ~ Leeana Tankersly, “Brazen”

A few weeks ago, “Brazen” by Leeana Tankersley, arrived in my mailbox dressed in a fuchsia cover and emblazoned with a promise to courageously help find the me that’s been hiding… (strange… has she been reading my blog??)

I chose “Brazen” because it seemed right up my alley being that my word of the year is Brave. Except, barring a few wardrobe choices lately I haven’t been feeling particularly courageous… Maybe “Brazen” would be just the motivation I needed.

Fanning out the pages on first glance, revealed section titles of Receive, Reclaim and Recover (Hmmm… she’s definitely been reading my posts) words that echo truths close to my heart that I long to revisit and I’m smitten at the start.

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For all who struggle with unclear dimensions and crooked paths in their life, Leeana beckons come closer to God our creator and to our created center. With humor and humility, she encourages as only a kindred spirit can. Part guided art project and part journaling exercise, “Brazen” beckons us to rest, listen, obey and lean in.

But not without fair warning: For when our soul follows hard after Jesus, there are bound to be some bruises. We may not like what we uncover as we practice this emerging but the benefits of bringing our fear and our folly into the light outweigh all else.

Turning pages finds her invitation to practice rhythms of grace- disciplines of faith, if you will- showing up for 20 minutes of soul time every day to listen to that still small voice dwelling deep down inside. A holy seek and find in the quiet we crave.

You don’t analyze, think or study your way there. You push the urgent back and you sit and you listen. You come to a point where you realize the rest of your life isn’t going to work if this twenty minutes doesn’t happen regularly….. This is about you sitting down long enough for God to get to you. ~ Leeana Tankersley, “Brazen”

{Just when I thought my “brave” mission was floundering I realize this longing and seeking after the God of our souls is in fact brazen– and I’ve been doing that all along…}

She invites us, as Jesus does, to keep casting our nets. Keep showing up in prayer and praise. Keep walking and keep giving back to God that which He so graciously gives us, for in the offering, purpose is revealed.

The you that has been hiding has already, always been there. We just have to learn to recognize her rhythms. We have to be willing to abandon the try for the mystery of trust. The journey is less about arriving and more about returning; to the truth we already knew, to the love we already have, to the beauty we already see. ~ Leeana Tankersley, “Brazen”

To keep returning to, seeking after and showing up for God is sometimes the most brazen thing we can do.

And I welcome the task.

Welcome, welcome, welcome, I welcome everything that comes to me today because I know it’s for my healing. I welcome all thoughts, feelings, emotions, persons, situations, and conditions. I let go of my desire for power and control I let go of my desire for affection, esteem, approval and pleasure. I let go of my desire for survival and security. I let go of my desire to change any situations, condition, person or myself. I open to the love and presence of God and God’s action within. Amen. ~Father Thomas Keating

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This book was given to me as part of Revell Reads review program but all opinions and thoughts expressed here are my own. I hope you love this book as much as I did.

10 thoughts on “How to Tell if You’re Brazen

  1. Valerie Sisco at Grace with Silk says:

    Heather,
    I loved the book too! The timing was perfect for me to read it and Leeana’s words struck a chord in my heart (as did yours)! I think as we move forward in our lives to whatever’s ahead for us in the future, approaching it with courage and a brazen desire to follow where God is leading us is so inspiring. So glad you loved the book!

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  2. Meg Weyerbacher says:

    I love this book and I haven’t even read it yet. Thanks for the thorough and beautifully written review!! I loved this line especially: “The journey is less about arriving and more about returning;” And yes, I think she did sneak by and read your blog haha! The words in her book sounded right up your alley! I am definitely adding it to my “to read” list. 🙂 God bless!

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    1. Heather says:

      Awww Hey Miss Meg!! It was definitely a soul stirring read 🙂 Valerie had an awesome story to go along with her review too- warmed my heart! Hope you are well and advancing in you home buying process!!! (I’ve been off the grid lately but slowly trying to catch up with my favorite writer people ♥♥ <– of which you are one!)

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  3. traceyatwaterintowine says:

    Brazen – what a great word!! Not one we normally associate with the Christian life so you had me from the get go. Heather I loved the journey you took us on in this post – from the longing that led you to pick up this book, to how it spoke to you, to you realising you have been on the path of bravery all along. Really looking forward to reading this one now. So interesting that she mentions the 20 minutes of soul time – oh my – now that’s 20 minutes I really need to incorporate into my day – everyday!, Xx

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